I am sorry you broke down, and especially glad CD Bear helped you through it. Thank goodness for the kind hearted people on this site~
Hang in there and know we all are here for you and care about you.
H found out that his ex-employer ( H retired) doesn't allow spouse to receive medical benefits if legally separated. So, H may push for D now.He brought up our M, I didn't. H said we absolutely are not staying together, M dead and we need to be apart... then he says later on, after things settle down, we could see each other if we both agree. Cake eating~