I have the very same thoughts all the time. Today has been a tough day. Our emotions tell us these things, even when our minds tell us the truth. The truth is neither of us deserved this. We are good people, and we deserve to be happy. I know I CAN be happy without my H, but I WANT to be happy with him.
I have self esteem and self confidence. What I don't have is a husband that loves me, and that loss is sometimes more than I think I can bear. But we go on. We get up every morning, eat our post toasties, put on our socks and shoes and go out to play. Breath in and breath out.
I know you are grateful for this board to be able to express these feelings, feelings you normally never show anybody. I'm the same way. It's just a bad day. Leave it at that. Tomorrow may be the day everything turns around. (( HUGS))
