I'm not "thinking of something else" to try anymore. I'm not dwelling on "saving my marriage" anymore. I'm pretty happy living my life. I do enjoy spending time with my W though, and I think we could have a good life together if she works through her issues. Everything she's done and said tells me she is trying. The reality is, she's not over OM yet, and I'm not over her yet, but I'm very close. Until those two things happen, I think we'll be in this limbo. When they do happen, I think we have a shot. I've completely pulled away from her again, but this time it was easy, and I didn't need anger to give me strength. She's not treating me very well any more, so I'm gone. If nothing else, her behavior toward me earlier this summer reminded me how I should be treated. She WAS getting that "rush" from me, let's see if I can get her back to feeling it. I'm not sure she does need it from other men. I think she just needs it from one man, but it has to be a man that doesn't get captured easily. If I want to be with her, I have to be that man.
Yeah, maybe telling my son I wished I could be there wasn't the best choice of words. His reaction was ok though. He knows I'd be there if his Mom and I were together.
