Prepare for a wonderful discovery

[sage]

Very interesting post, Sage.

Do you mean interesting like "hey, let's talk about that over dinner sometime" or interesting like "I hope she's getting help for that issue..." (you know "I-N-T-E-R-E-S-T-I-N-G)

Seriously, Sage...don't underestimate yourself. And at any rate is this "self" we're talking about the very same entity as the one you "felt good about" pre A?

Hardly! Hardly!!!

So you can't even begin to compare feeling good about the new and improved Sage with feeling good about the former, somewhat blinded Sage, can you???

I think I'm just railing against myself a bit (no kidding, right?). I think I'm "black and whiting" it -- am I good person? am I a bad person? You know...as though I could only be one or the other...

I'd like to think that I'm more aware than I was but well, I thought that then, too!

I can feel myself putting pressure on ME right now and it feels like it's spilling over to h and m, too...moreofthesame! I need a chill pill.

positives:
1. h had study group last night. when he got home he told me that the third person hadn't shown up so it was just him and ff. Looks like that's actually the way it's going to be...I SO appreciate him telling me...being his honest self. I would be lying if I said that a part of me (inside) didn't cry out "please, do something different!" but I kept myself in check, I think. I left him a note this AM thanking him for his honesty.

2. Day one of new goals was successful.

3. h was unbelievably loving when he got home...full of wonderful expressions of love and holding my hand, etc.

Sage