The year of not my problem

[AJM]

I appreciate that Kat. I think part of it is getting to the point of actually letting go. I think what is happening is that it is not all at once but rather in "steps". Letting go of the garbage. Allowing myself to realize I am better off without and not feeling guilty for knowing that. Allowing myself that I will no longer be held back by having to walk on eggshells.

I do talk about things pertaining to the kids. I flat out refuse to let them get caught in the middle of that. At any expense including (realistically) my own.

It gets confusing sometimes. Keeping sanity in my hands. Today has been one of those days. I'm tired. I can no longer hang on to to the memories and dreams. At least not for now. I need rest. I need solace. I. That still seems strange but I do like me and it is not as strange as it once was. Becoming much more familiar.

I like the man I see in the mirror. I like whom I have become. Me only with some adjustments.

Thanks for setting me straight....