My New LBS Reality

[irishblessings]

OK - so the single mom thing has gotten the best of me! Down to one car - I create an elaborate plan how 3 of us can use the car and get to where we are all supposed to be. Get up early - everything going fine. Get to work - go to a meeting - come back and I have all these missed calls from S and D because I walked out with the keys. I had to call H to ask him to swing by and pick S up for school. Third tardy for son on MY watch in 15 days. I'm losing it - feeling pathetic - feeling like H will NEVER want me back - I'm such a screw up, etc. What is MY problem? He has left - he is not coming back - he doesn't want to come back. I'm working my a$$ off trying to do everything right for my kids/myself - trying to come to terms with what kind of life I'm going to have! It's not the life I wanted - I want to be in a R with someone who loves and values me and family. I'm feeling rather hopeless today! Thanks for listening!