Not much I can add here Sage...it seems the BB is in an extreme self-examination cycle right now. I share a great number of the thoughts tha you have been having as well and frankly, I'm stymied
I shared this thought with my mom...
I have to constantly remind myself that the intention is for H and I to spend the rest of our lives together and it is OK to take our time...that we don't HAVE to cram everything in right now to make it all grand and right and good. That doesn't mean I don't WANT to cram it all in, it just helps to take some of the urgency out of everything.
I don't know if that helps any but it is applicable to the changes I am trying to make in myself as well as in my R/M.
Hugz, Zoo
"If patience is worth anything, it must endure to the end of time. And a living faith will last in the midst of the blackest storm."
- Mahatma Gandhi