Sage, All you say is admirable-really it is. You speak pretty much for all of us when you set your goals. You work constantly on getting past the betrayal and what it did to you mentally, as we all do. We all work so damn hard at this-every SINGLE day. My question is: Is love suppose to be this hard? Is LOVE suppose to hurt this much? The only logical answer is no of course. The chapter in the Bible speaks on what love is. It isn't any of the things MY H is doing right now. I think most of us have that kind of love for our H's or we wouldn't be here. I'm wondering. Did my H ever have that kind of love for me? Will he ever? Just wondering out loud. I'm in a wondering kind of mood tonight. I really hijacked Tal's thread. Sorry Tal. I won't do it to Sage too. I'm really a positive person, and a survivor. Then what is this I'm doing??? Rachael
