Do you hold seminars? Gonna borrow your goals. Need some new ones.
I sometimes can't believe that the confident, amused and happy Bridget drained away. Just bcuz my H left me to do porn graphics and date coeds, I collapsed. Does that mean I was only self-assured because I was married?
The accomplished, self-accepting woman he married would be apalled (was apalled) to see the disapadated rag I became when he left me. (Lots of my women friends were, too.)
I've been DB-ing like crazy to get back some vibrancy and independence, to recover the assured, creative woman I used to be. It works, yes -- with daily struggle.
I am so grateful to have found DR and DB and the BB cuz without these I would have thought I was an insane over-reacting overly-dependent nutcase. Or I would still be consumed by HATE for men, period. It's been healing to share my fears AND my baby steps.
I now know you can HEAL and be happy again. I'm pretty well on my way. It has taken a lot longer than I thought it would, though. Takes a lot of patience.
Glad I learned this. Can't claim it is my forte, yet, but it's a very valuable tool.
I gotta do some daily meditation and daily exercise too.
Thanks again for sharing, Sage. I'm gonna get me some new goals, and gonna take note of my progress toward them. Thanks for the reminder.
Though H and I are separated, we are not enemies. I'm grateful for that, and know the work I did to be nice to him no matter has kept me moving forward, kept me from feeling guilty and even more self-punishing.
I'll think of you as I do my stretches in the morning.
