Happiness, love, commitment are all a choice. NO ONE can give it to us. WE have to give it freely of and to ourselves. Each and every decision we make is OUR OWN responsibility. NO ONE can force us or make us choose destructive actions in our lives, except ourselves.
You will make peace with the painful thoughts of the poor and painful choices your H made when he chose to betray you rather than confront you with his doubts, fears etc, because you will eventually come to see that YOU have NO responsibility in those choices....YOUR responsibility stops at what YOU do.
Sage I know you know all of this already but it is from an awesome post to me and I thought reminding you of it might help you just a tad!!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"