These changes are certainly for me, although, I will admit that when it all first happened I was focusing on making changes for her.
I don't think I would have the good feeling I do right now, if it wasn't about me.
I am not even thinking about her noticing any changes, I don't care? Also, she doesn't see me and we don't really talk much - so the opportunity isn't really there anyhow. No point in worrying about there noticing anything. Besides, I know where her focus is now - and it is not me. I just keep that little thought in the back of my mind - if she wants to, if shes ready - she will. Pretty much going back to the Picnic analogy you had sent me.
This coming long weekend is the first I have had without the boys, since the arrangment. It will feel a little awkward and I will miss them. But she needs her time with them as well. I have decided to take a little fishing trip with my lil brother and some friends - some down time. It maybe only 30 mins from here, but there is no cell service..no wi-fi...no power. I will take full advantage of it.
