It's creating some "squirrel moves" on her part but, most importantly, it IS WORKING FOR YOU!!!!
You feel better; you look better; you sound better; you are getting your confidence back!!
It's ALL GOOD!!
And you have the right attitude. Completely non-pursuing. Yeah, she looks great but you're starting to see the light.
Is she REALLY what I want? This appears to me to be the critical junction where the LBS becomes the WAS. You are now more concerned with YOUR life than hers. AND you are beginning to see the goodness that life has to offer.
You are doing great, my friend. Keep on the path you are on and don't stop or wait for anything or anyone.
If they want to be with you, they have a lot of catching up to do!!
Don't expect this bhvr to continue on her part or be disappointed when it stops. It's part of the squirrel moves.
Don't change what you are doing. You keep moving away. She'll have to follow or get left behind. And you are fine either way.
CD, thank you for showing up! Sincerely!
I don't know what to do...I'm here right now later and longer than I want to be.
Weakness...She threw me for a loop....Squirrel ran up to my hand and ran away IMO. What is this? I can't see her anymore...Not because I don't want to, but because of the feelings it brings. This happened way too fast!
I see her, I want her, but I'm not stupid enough to chase. Why am I doing this anymore?
Please note, this moment of weakness will pass...I'm fully aware of the path I keep treading...but when do I accept or STOP the path?
At what point do I endure or Let go(and I mean Let go). Obviously what I'm doing is triggering this effect. I love her and don't want to lose her, but I don't want to turn into the sad sack that keeps "hanging" on either.
Let her go...Let her go...I GET IT...but when do you say enough is enough and just say F it.
How long do you endure this, when she's already made her choice. I'm too old for games and life is too short to wait.