Di- I am so sorry for your pain, and at the same time I feel it like it's me telling your story. I have felt everythought you have posted here. The only difference is I was weak and finally filed for divorce in April of 2009. We have been divorced now for over a year. To this day I cannot let go of the what ifs. I cannot get rid of the thought that maybe someday.... Bless you Di.
was theotherhalf M43 H43 M22 T25 MLC/OW bomb 4/07 Hmoved out 8/07 D6/09 Still trying to accept and move on...