Hope I'm not interfering but I read a couple of posts and it kind of fit with what I've been feeling lately. Something that hit me today. How do I let go of the life I had with ex, when it has been my whole life.
I have been seperated from my H for 3 years and divorced for 14 months. I have a new man in my life. I RARELY hear from my ex. Never see him. I hate the man he is today. I hate all that he's done to me and to our daughter and continues to do. He is still with OW. I have started school. I have my own house. Money is tight but I'm surviving. I enjoy life except when I'm alone. Done alot of new things and have a lot of things I'm going to do. Life is just grand...
So I tell myself. And still...
I miss my husband terribly. I miss his laughter. I miss his smile. I miss our love. I miss our freindship. I miss playing with him. I miss him holding me. I miss almost everything about him and our life together. And that my freinds doesn't seem to lessen. I go days without thinking of him. But not many. I don't cry nothing like I used to, but I still cry. I still shake my head, wondering how and why.
So I'm faking it, but will I ever make it?


was theotherhalf
M43
H43
M22 T25
MLC/OW bomb 4/07 Hmoved out 8/07
D6/09
Still trying to accept and move on...