Not sure where to start, or end. WAW?

[john28]

W called me tonight to let S4 talk to me before bed. He was crying on the phone. I hear him mutter through tears - "I love you daddy. I miss you. I ate sausage today." What a sweet child. I wished him goodnight then she got on the phone.

She said she was sorry she didn't call earlier. He was in bed and he called for her to come and asked if he could call Daddy. She said he was happy that she was calling me, but as soon as he heard my voice he started to cry. I asked her why. She said she didn't know.....

Sweet child, I am so sorry.

I can't imagine that if we D the conversation I'm going to have to have with him when he's a young man and asks what really happened to his mother and father. Son, Dad tried everything he could. I promise. There was nothing else I could do. I wanted to keep our family together, but I couldn't.

I'll tell him that someday. That I tried everything and never gave up on him and his mother.

I told W thanks for calling very nicely. Then I said bye. No conversation or ILY with W tonight. That didn't hurt at all after feeling my son crying for me in bed.