Why does this never get easier? Last night H decided he wanted to talk about things (the first time in over 2 years). He finally dropped the attiude and let his guard down. He actually looked me in the eyes and seemed sincere. And since he was willing to listen and not just walk out, I said my peace.
I asked him how he could do what he did, how he could hurt DD and I like that and so on. Believe it or not, he took it like a man. He didn't yell, he didn't deny, he didn't shift the blame to me. He dropped the cocky attitude and faced the consequences of his choices. He didn't argue or make excuses. He just kept saying he regrets what he did and said he should have stayed and worked on the marriage. And I didn't cut him any slack, I held him accountable for everything. When he left, he looked like he was carrying the wait of the world on his shoulders.
Over the last 2 days, he's said a few times that he wanted to come home and work on the marriage numerous times but OW said if he left she would tell me everything and he figured if that happened there would be no chance of reconciliation. Is he sincere? IDK. I do know there were times when he did say he wanted to move back home, but as you know it didn't happen.
I wish God could just send me a text message telling me what to do. This is so confusing. _________________________ Me: 34 H: 34 DD: 3 M: 8 yrs H moved out Oct. 2008, "not happy" "don't know what I want" "will always love you, but not in love with you" PA Bomb: April 5, 2010
Me: 34 H: 34 DD: 3 M: 8 yrs H moved out Oct. 2008, "not happy" "don't know what I want" "will always love you, but not in love with you" PA Bomb: April 5, 2010
