I've been thinking about this all day, is it fear or love? Or both?
I am fearful of failure, I don't like to fail, I don't like to give up.
I am fearful of having my standard of living so drastically reduced. I'm fearful of not having enough money to support myself and my boys.
I am fearful of being lonely, of having no one to call for help, of being sick without anyone to help.
I am fearful of never being loved again. Of never having someone "have my back"
I am fearful of being divorced, of being perceived as an angry, bitter woman. Of being an angry, bitter woman.
So those were what came to me today as I tried to honestly look at everything. So how do I separate what is fear and what is love? Can someone really love someone enough to let them go be with OW? To pursue their happiness with them?
Dagny
Me 48, H49, M24, S14, S11 DB #1 4/2002-8/2003 Bomb #2 August 2010 & he moved out Living with OW