Sage, Reading your posts helps me so much in dealing with the different sitchuations that pop up all the time. It helps me to see that even though your H is SO loving and attentive, you still have the same doubts and fears I do. That tells me that it's US that we need to work on, that we have to overcome all the doubts we have that are caused by the past. No matter what our H's do that is positive, we still have these annoying little demons that cause us anxeity and suspicion. You have a great way of dispelling the negative,and focus on the positive. Your R is an inspiration to me. It helps me believe in happy endings. You will be one that lives happily ever after I think. You are well on your way! Rachael