She doesn't "want" to be married to you, she has a R with another man, and you still want to be married to her. She can't respect or be attracted to a man that would allow that.

What happened when the pastor from her church tried to reason with her?

"God himself dares not appear before a hungry man except in the form of bread." - Ghandi

Stop being cake. Let her go.


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It won't change my feeling that marriage is supposed to be forever


Feelings are different than beliefs. Challenge both.



Waiting on her to throw a Hail Mary isn't going to work. I would prefer to have the ball in my own hands.

M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12
Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.