WAW Using God III

[pigskin]

I've used every tactic in the book.

try letting her go

I will state this: there is ZERO chance of me taking her back once the dissolution goes through. None. I have a friend who made that mistake and I will not go down that road, ever. When it is done, she is dead to me.

She knows how faithful I am to the Catholic church, and she knows full well that I believe marriage is forever.

Be honest with yourself. This isn't congruent.

I guess I don't know what "letting her go" means. In my mind I have - our talks were all initiated by her, with me just listening and replying to lies and incorrect recollection of facts. I do nothing with her outside of family business and treating her as civilly as I would a person off the street. I give her no more affection than I give to any other woman I know.

If she called today and said she has a lawyer and wants to fasttrack the process, I'd say "cool". Is it what I want? No. But I don't NEED this marriage.

It won't change my feeling that marriage is supposed to be forever, but when a spouse walks away even the church says you can divorce. I am eager to get going with the next phase, whatever it may be. So yes, when the papers are signed, she will be dead to me. I will be calling my pastor the same day to start the annulment process.

Again, not what I WANT, but we don't always get what we want. We have to then face reality and deal with it. My reality will be that my marriage of "forever" was stripped from me despite my best efforts to save it. Maybe I'll find someone else, maybe I'll live the rest of my life as a single man. I don't know what God will have in store for me, but it will be great no matter what.