I don't know, but I think it's probably common to have these thoughts from time to time.
We all could have done things differently and we all screw up. That's life! I know you are hurting and scared. Again, normal.
Get back, as quick as you can, to the mind set you need to get through this. Allow yourself to feel your loss. Then it's time to take care of business. I'm having one of those days, too. I feel pretty down today and don't know why. It will pass. We have to carry on and do what's right.
How's the job front looking? Did you find CG on the alt?
