The loneliness is overwhelming. I did break down and call yesterday, but he didn't answer. Never called back, so I didn't have to make up an excuse. Though it could have been a S that called, he didn't call to say good-night until late that evening. S said he didn't want to talk to me. Same routine this morning. God it hurts.
I read on someone's thread to make it safe for H to talk to me. That made a lot of sense, if he is going to want to talk to me, those times we talk, I need to provide an atmosphere that is pleasant. But if we never talk, how will this happen? 106 days until Christmas Break. Then I will have to make a decsion to stay here or move back to PA. And why in the world do I want a H back that has lied to me, is having an affair, and wants his kids to live 12 hours away from him? Why?
Dagny
Keep that question in mind everytime you get the urge to call him.
