Prepare for a wonderful discovery

[sage]

Hi all,

Happy Thanksgiving (almost) to all! I like to be a day early with these well wishes!

H just woke me up (I'm taking today off) with the most wonderful words...he told me how much he loves me..how special I am to him...that our hearts are entwined...then he told me that the coffee was brewing! (this is a biggie since he doesn't drink coffee!). It was an amazing conversation...(well..half conversation...I was half asleep and worried about morning breath!)...I asked him to say it into a tape recorder so I could hear it all the time...he said all I had to do was ask.

I'm not entirely sure what spurred it on...he has a paper due today (a very important one) and he realized last night that he also had a court date to fight a pretty expensive speeding ticket that he got last summer. Going to court would have taken up precious time...I told him that I thought his time was worth the $ that we'd end up paying out for the ticket -- that focusing on his paper was more important IMHO. He said he thought he still wanted to go...but this AM he got up at 5 and then a few hours later said "I don't think I'm going to make it to court" -- I said "honey, I really don't want you stressing about that."

That's a pretty giant 180 for me...well...it WOULD be if it weren't so second nature now...to not freak out about $ or the schedule mishap or just get stressed out in general...to not ASSume that he was thoughtless or something negative...what a huge difference an open acceptance of him has made.

I'm still a work in progress... it's scary to me sometimes how much I can still dwell on the a and the aftermath...but mornings like this one (and h's hard work to help us heal) help an awful lot. If I can keep in the present, I do ok.

Sage