cheated on, lied to, and now I am moving on

[awest1217]

I agree. I am not looking into H's actions anymore than what they are. I just thought it was weird because for 17 months he hasn't cared one bit about me or S, and now all the sudden he does care about me. Just weird.

About the birthday, I hear you, but at the same time I am not willing to not see S on his birthday every other year. I am the one who carried him for 9 months. I am the one who was in labor for 26 hours. I am the one who pushed for 2.5 hours. I am the one who stayed up with him while he cried and cried every night for 6 weeks (except one night H gave me a break). I am the one who has been there for him every single day for the past 3 years. NOT H. I agree it may get strange as S gets older, but at the same rate, as S gets older, it won't be as big of a deal to do something on his birthday with his family. He will want to be out with his friends or girlfried, etc. For right now, to be fair and because I will want H to do the same thing with me if he has him over his actual birthday that we will at least do dinner together.

My weekend was alright. I did get everything for S's birthday so I am excited, but my allergies are still bad. All of my friends have the same thing going on so I am not worried, it is just very draining to have this and still work, but it seems that I do better when I am moving so being at work will help. Over the weekend, by 5 pm or 6pm I am so stuffed that I can't breath.

Saturday, H dropped off 15 minutes early and was looking at the clock the whole time he dropped off. We have started H staying for 15-30 minutes after he drops off S to transistion and it seems to be helping because S is much less fussy when H leaves. It is nice because I can ask S questions about his day and H will help S explain so I know exactly what is happening. I did let H know I was a little perturbed that he came back early because I was not ready. I was still in my relax before S comes back mode. Plus what if I wasn't home yet or something else. He said S wanted to come back early, but that is not what S told me. H knows he has S only two days every two weeks and really only 1 day and 3 hours so why drop him off early. If he had plans, he needs to not have anything start until 8 so we can transition S and he has time to get wherever he wants to go.

This week will be busy. Tonight my friend who got D'd is coming over for dinner. Tomorrow is my early day at work and prayer at night. Wednesday is nothing. Thursday I am taking off to take S to his first dentist appointment. (I asked H to go too, but he won't take off of work...surprise surprise). Friday we are going to see the ND band march out. Saturday is making S's cake, a mushroom to go along with his mario theme. S wants three cakes, one luigi, one bowser and one mushroom, but he is only getting one. Sunday is the party. Monday is relax because it is Labor Day.