Prepare for a wonderful discovery

[sage]

and smart enough, and gosh darn it people like you!!! especially h!!!

try not to be so hard on yourself sage, you are doing a wonderful job with everthing.

LL

Glad you got the joke, ll!

I'm gonna beat up on myself for a few more minutes then hopefully I'll get over it...

can someone tell me why I cannot HEAR the things that h IS saying? Why am I so DAMN SLOW to see and recognize and absorb all of the changes that he is making?

h tells me last night "I am working hard to earn your trust".

And while I thanked him last night and gave him good hugs and all...it was only after stomping around a bit today, feeling irked, thinking deep thoughts, that it really and truly hit me....that I really understood and absorbed what he said.

We battled over trust in the first years of our m. How I needed help to feel it...how he deemed that "my problem"...then of course, the a and the aftermath....I railed at him "I need you to do things differently" but I dunno, he just wasn't ready for that...

the same man now is talking about earning...my....trust....

why am I so blind and deaf?

It's like this stuff just doesn't penetrate...

well...maybe it does...but it seems to take me forever to GET IT.

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE REMIND ME OF THIS STATEMENT FROM H the next time I'm bemoaning my existence?

thanks.

Sage

PS not the greatest recovery but I just sent h an email and among other things...thanked him for the conversation. I'll be sure to follow that up with ACTION!