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[holdingon]

so...why did it make me feel SO DAMN SAD?

Because my brain is trying to kill me.

OK...no really...because I'm TIRED of feeling busted up. I'm MAD at myself for still not feeling whole...for still wondering if he WANTS TO BE HERE. I'm mad at myself for still not being relaxed in my marriage.

Trying24now and I talked about this at length... I think the sadness is pretty much what you said, that you are still wondering. I find it difficult to see the positives because the next day I feel sad... the R is still not moving along at the pace that I think it should be. It is not where I want it to be. My brain "if only"s me to death. Why can I not see a baby step and accept it as such? Because tomorrow he could step backwards, I guess, I don't know.