Today really is my new beginning. Today is the first day that the house is truly mine. stbxH moved the rest of his stuff out yesterday and now has his own place. The kids will get to spend the day and night for the first time tomorrow.
So. Here I am. Alone.
And, although I know I still have grieving left to do, I am excited. Excited about the possibility that now lies in front of me. My life. MY life. My LIFE.
I am making a decision to live a conscious life. Not to just let it happen and roll along with it ... I am going to set my own direction. I am going to live in the moment. I will live my life and make decisions without regrets. I will CHOOSE how I live my life.
Today, I choose to live MY life.
"Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength." ~ Arnold Schwarzenegger
Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
Congratulations Pei. Re-arrange the furniture. Make it yours. That's why I wish to sell my house so badly, to move into something that I can consider mine and mine alone.
And, although I know I still have grieving left to do, I am excited. Excited about the possibility that now lies in front of me. My life. MY life. My LIFE.
Zipadeedoodah yay for you, PEI! So pleased for you and all you've worked so hard for.
I love that quote. If I might offer you one of my favorites? You might have heard it before. Hope it's not too hokey sounding! "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it now. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it." Some say Goethe said it, some say not. Who knows. Anyways, toasting you and your new possibilites with my morning coffee. Yay PEI!
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
IMO - now the hard work begins. H is no longer there and cannot be used as the reason for any of YOUR actions.
I am proud of you. Now is the time for you to heal those wounds, now is your time to deal with those demons of the past. Now is your time to show the world and YOUR H - who the real T is. No more excuses T.
Finally, I will pass on a word of wisdom that was past on to me.
Never let your anger, your fear, your issues from changing your mind. From leaving open the possibility that maybe your H could wake the F up. Never let pride stop you from doing what it is that YOU really want to do.
I think you know this T. Just live your life. Live your truth - no one elses. The world is in front of you. Make of it what you will - choose carefully. Live, love and continue to grow.
God Bless Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
FMV, thanks for the quote, I'm adding it to my collection.
Grit, what? C'mon, it's only 4 threads since April...
Eric,
Originally Posted By: Eric
H is no longer there and cannot be used as the reason for any of YOUR actions. No more excuses T. Never let pride stop you from doing what it is that YOU really want to do.
Originally Posted By: Eric
I think you know this T. Just live your life. Live your truth - no one elses. The world is in front of you. Make of it what you will - choose carefully. Live, love and continue to grow.
I do know this Eric. You know me well enough to know I am not proud. I am choosing very carefully, in accordance with my truth. I am open to living, loving and growing. I truly am excited about my future, and I am aware of the pain, healing and challenges I still have to face. Thank you.
“Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.” ~ Seneca
Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
Interesting you should say that. I always say there is no room in love for pride. Letting my H know that I still care for him, without pressure, is not groveling. It doesn't debase me in any way. Instead, it shows I'm willing to walk the walk.
Interesting you should say that. I always say there is no room in love for pride. Letting my H know that I still care for him, without pressure, is not groveling. It doesn't debase me in any way. Instead, it shows I'm willing to walk the walk.
Glad to see someone else agrees.
I do agree on this punkin, there is no room for pride in ANYTHING. I will be true to me, period. If H comes knocking on my door someday it won't be pride that decides whether or not we have anything to work on.
Now, in your sitch, H knows you care. Continuing to tell him would be a form of pressure IMO.
PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it now. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it." Some say Goethe said it, some say not. Who knows. Anyways, toasting you and your new possibilites with my morning coffee. Yay PEI!