You are right..I don't think I was played now that I have reviewed the "event" again. I was the one, after all, that "put it out there". I think we just both felt needy. The interesting thing is that a month ago, H would not have agreed to anything physical. But, I won't initiate anything again physical again- H will have to, but there will have to be boundaries attached.
You weren't being crude at all- I get your point. In my sitch, I just thought if I could break down the ice barrier, I could soften my H's logical resolve. I am not 100% convinced H IS as closed emotionally as I though he was. Wishful thinking, maybe!
Anyway, the rope is dropped again, and life goes on. I am making plans for my move in November.
Thanks for being "out there" .I appreciate your wise insight and support. It means alot to me.
