On two ends of the world..

[FindingMyVoice]

Hey ris, I'm so sorry to hear you're hurting today...I know it's hard, when one week/day/moment you're up and things are looking hopeful but then things turn so quickly and all you can feel is despair. And folks say that yes it's normal, that's the 'roller coaster' - and of course, it is - but that doesn't stop your from feeling so low. Yah, it's hard. I can appreciate when you're angry, it's hard to start conversations... it's ok not to. Sometimes we just need to hibernate with our feelings for a while.

You know, this might be of help... one thing I've noticed in my sitch, is that when things felt the most down, even if it lasted for days or longer - there'd always be something that would eventually happen - oh I don't know, I can't even give you an example. But something like a sudden flash of insight; some understanding that would have never occurred to me before; or a hint of an idea as to how I could make my life better, that would always seem to come after one of those 'down' periods. It was odd. And once I had that flash, it kind of almost gave me some energy, or the motivation or something, to handle the next period of time. Or maybe the idea as to how to handle whatever particular troublesome pattern or problem I was trying to overcome.

Don't know if that helps, but thought I'd offer it up in case it might help you to know that that can happen. At first I thought it was a coincidence, but I soon realized it was happening too often to be. But I think that sometimes we need those low times... who knows maybe it's our subconscious processing through all the stuff that needs filtering... so that you can find your footing again.

Sorry, if that's a little too philosophical for your taste!! Anyways, my heart goes out to you today. Take care, FMV.