Here's a story...of a very sad lady

[Dagny-2]

S11 says he wants to do a 5k with me, be nice if it was a family affair, the 3 of us, establish and accomplish a goal together. I will set the alarm just a bit earlier and get 20 minutes of exercise in the morning.

Went to church and CCD with the boys, sat by the river during CCD and read a book. Felt very sad and lonely, but picked myself up before time to get kids. Went to S13 soccer game and H was there. We sat and watched. H made sure to get a dig in to make sure I'm getting it that he is pulling away from us, he is going to switch his drivers license to TN, he was keeping it PA and had planned on that. I just nodded at the comment and didn't say a word. We left and I didn't linger during good-byes. S11 said he missed Daddy, and I just said it is his choice. He says, that is what you always say. Am I saying the wrong thing? I didn't feel I'm being nasty, just matter-of-fact. I haven't said a bad thing about him in front of the kids, just the statement that this is what he is choosing.

I so want to call and chat with him, have our phone conversations of old, like we usually did on Sundays when we were apart. I'm really not sue this letting go is going to work, since we've lived in 2 states and he only saw us every other weekend during the summer, how is this so different? He was with his girlfriend all the time before and now he is still with her.

Dagny