P, you're sounding stronger every time I read up on here!!! Proud of you!!!
I wanted to say, taking the high road is for bettering yourself and your state of mind. Not to make things easier on him, or because he deserves your wonderfulness. Its to make your own life more serene, and because you deserve to be in a happy place... No matter how effed up that is! No situation is perfect for any of us... But like the saying goes... When life hands you lemons, better make lemonade!
Also, once your feeling better, and happier you will be more confident in creating/obtaining boundaries with your H. Wouldn't you love for him to say, hey what's up with P?! She seems so happ!!! Not trying to say you're not happy, I know your bub makes you very happy!!!
Its hard... Not easy at all! And days where you're going to say F this happy crap... But most days you will feel better because the hostility, as you mention above will be gone. And no matter what the future has in store for you, wouldn't it be best for bub to have her mum and dad get along.
I wish you continued stregnth!!!!!!!!!! You're doing a great job
By the way, are you really going on holiday? Cool!
