You're not alone, but you are the minority on this site. Most everyone else has been cheated on and walked out on. I doubt you will get much sympathy here. Of course, you know that you made the bed and now you must lie in it. But it looks like this thing is dragging on and not going anywhere.
I suggest that you ask your wife to go with you to a Retrouvaille weekend. Not for the two of you, but because you have children who deserve to live better than the way the family is now. There are several groups in Florida, and weekends are offered about 4X per year. Check the website, www.helpourmarriage.org for dates and locations. They have at least a 50% success rate at saving marriages. It has worked for me and several other people on this site.
