Hey Sandi, Hope all is well with you, just venting and have a few questions. Well today was our 6th yr. anniversary!! It maybe not that long it sucked, but I got through it and hung out with a buddy of mine.
W and I talked a little yesterday as she took S to Hershey Park for 2 days before. Yes we talked yesterday about our status and what was going on!! I said I'm glad you guys had fun, then she told me you know how many times I herd I wish daddy was here. I told her I know I get the same. ( Feel bad for S but trying to make the best for him as I'm taking him to Outer Banks for 2 days.
W said I have everything she has, W said she had no further funds right now to pay her lawyer. W was upset because I never got back to her about what we talked about in July with the D and separation agreement.
I said we don’t talk at all for the most part, so I brought up the mediation and said it would save us a lot of money. (Yes stupid again).
As much as it hurts I'm going to back away as much as I can except if it has to deal with our S. However what if it is to do with our mediation or D stuff? Any suggestions would be great thanks.
I don’t like this and don’t deserve this. My question to you is do you think she is still in contact with OM or as she stated it still as feelings with him? My gut feeling is I don’t know, but think so (Maybe I’m blind).
One other question is do you think that she has so carries so much guilt, and wonders why I still care? or possibly that is why we have had a lot of mixed emotions/singals thru this year?
One final question Were you separated during your Anniversary? If so how did you feel? I'm really am trying to let go and look foward.
I just feel like a failure with my M and I let our S down. Today I’m just down and out.. However I am going to listen to you and back away(I know about time)..
