My New LBS Reality

[irishblessings]

Hello friends! Last night spent the night at my best friend's house back in my old hometown. She knows everything that has been going on and she was such a wonderful support - I am blessed!

Today, moved my D into her new house on campus. This mom is getting too old for 3rd floor apartments with no elevators and moving beds, etc. However - I did it and she was grateful for my help. Got a hotel room for she and I and we hot tubbed it and are getting ready to eat dinner.

When I was leaving for out of town, H texts me - "Would you care if I stopped by the house to see D and S?" First contact in over a month. I text back "sure". He sends back "ok, thx". Kids say conversation just plain generic - felt like he was only there because he felt obligated to be. I feel like I have completely left his radar. I feel like he never thinks of me at all. He never checks in with me to see if we are ok - he's just gone. It hurts.

I realized over the past few days that I have decent self esteem as a mother and employee and friend. However, I have never had self esteem as a wife or a woman. I've always put myself down and never felt worthy or beautiful or sexy. Could be a problem!

Thanks for listening!