Crushed, I took ADs for 2 months and the withdrawal symptoms were horrendous. Your doc also won't tell you that if you take certain ones for an extended period of time you might be on them for life. FOR LIFE!! Be very careful....I chose to go to a Naturopath who did a urine test and blood work and I got on supplements instead. It took longer, not an immediate "fix," but IMO much safer and better for you down the road. One year later, I'm in the best shape of my life. I also think ADs can "numb" you from feeling what you need to feel in order to get through this. I felt the anger, the grief, the raw pain, etc. and walked through it. It wasn't easy, but you can do it.
As far as *self-indulgent,* you have to be right now and it's okay. Focus on you and your little ones. Your fling was because you needed to feel validated that someone of the opposite sex would find you attractive and desirable. It's okay, I think most of us have been there. NOW, have the "fling" with yourself to find out who you are without her. It will be the best experience of your life.
Me 55 H 49 Married 21 years No kids bomb 5/09 filed 7/09 divorced and moving forward 5/10
