She's in MLC, but I was weak. Now what?

[crushednstuck]

Lance, I did read your post. Using prescription drugs is not an option for me. My IC offered them, but it's not something I'm comfortable with. I'm sleeping, eating and working out fine. I think I may be in the depression stage but don't know if I'm actually depressed.
I understand I need to take care of myself. However, at what point does all this reflection become self-indulgent and narcissistic? Part of what I'm trying to improve is my ability to be a better friend. I've been guilty of not recognizing the impact of my actions on others. I need be more responsive and sensitive to what is going on around me. With limited time to focus on improvement, I feel this self examination runs counter to what I'm trying to accomplish.