I appreciate that. I am not one for giving much advice, (too new here), I really just want to pass along what is working for me and share some of my thoughts.
I am coping as best as I can under the circumstances. It is hard to really understand what motivates the WAS. I think you are handling things well.
We just need to nurture ourselves in any way we can, and consider the WAS as a second priority. It's all about US now.
Thanks for being there and just keep doing what works for you.