Btw G, WH wrote more in that email but I edited it down by two lines which were more detail about bub's condition. Interesting you think that he said more than he needs to... I think partly that he feels guilty (for everything AND for leaving the country without wanting to say goodbye to me or my family --- which is HUGE. They were SO close!)...
But a bigger part of me thinks he just wants me to accept this as the status quo and actually that he's happy as a pig in sh*t:
+ Is now a Father, with capitol 'F'; and a much better one than his own. Paying me child support eventually will be a pleasure because it will asuage his guilt and increase his feelings of ownership/investment + Has the woman of his dreams + Is now living again in the city with his best childhood friends and one or two adored family members + Is back living in the country/city of his origins and his dream city + Is on the cusp of getting a job in the industry of his dreams in the city of his dreams + Has no responsibilities. Free! Young again! New love!
I mean, heck, I know we are not supposed to focus on our spouses or soon to be ex-spouses, but life for WH is looking pretty HOT!
Compare this to me:
+ Shattered relationship, single, rebuilding dreams + single parenting + living with my parents + not living in the city/country I want to + bored with my job.
Ok...Clearly, since I can only control myself and am responsible for living the life I want, I HAVE WORK TO DO!
