CG, how long did it take for you to start feeling this way (the death of your L for him)? Very curious to knwo how long it has been for others...
fwiw, for me it was within weeks of the D. Which was 15 months post Bomb, 9 months post "I want a D," and after everything I could think of to do for my hurting (former) best-friend-turned-unprincipled-alien. Peace,
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac