My walk away wife story

[40andsadintexas]

Journaling

Today is Friday already, I can believe haw fast the time has past since the D bomb and separation. Tomorrow will mark 3 months since separation. The last three months have been a wild ride, I’m not sure that any decision I’ve made in that 3 months has been good or bad. I need to be strong for my kids and stay away from the STBEXW as much as possible. I am glad that she is letting me see and talk to the kids more than she was just a couple of weeks ago this is a huge improvement but it will not stop me from pushing forward with my custody case. Mrs. 40 has proven over the last three months that the only way I can have a relationship with my kids is to fight her for my rights as a parent, she is making very bad choices that I do not want my children exposed to. If all goes well in court my plan is to write a parenting plan that keeps her a part of our 4 kids lives, with boundaries to keep our kids on the strait and narrow with morals. How do you explain with you daughter that its not ok to play the field when mom is doing it. In six or seven months she will be a free woman I hope she wakes up and decides to keep her dating away from the kids. Sadly I don’t expect this to happen she was talking wedding bells with OM#1 as soon as she dumped him she started the same talk with OM # 2. I see her in a never ending string of 3 month relationships from now until the end of time, my hope is she will not involve the kids but I sure wouldn’t bet any money on that.

Sunday is oldest son’s B-Day he will be 7. Last weekend I took him to his favorite restaurant and we celebrated a week early, last night his mother asked me if I wanted him to spend the night on Sunday of course I do. I wish that she would let all of them come spend the night but at the same time I will be glad to spend some alone time with him, of all my kids he is the one I worry about keeping a good relationship with. When the wife and I first separated he pulled away from me and would not have anything to do with me. Now he is acting like his old self again, but for a while I was worried that his mother was alienating him from me.
Tonight I haven’t decided what I am going to do either go out with my best friend, or go out with a old girl friend who I went and had a drink with last Sunday. I feel safe having her as my friend because if anything was ever going to happen between us it would have happened 16 or 17 years ago when we first met, we dated on and off for 3 years before I started dating the STBEXW but neither one of us ever felt the need to take that relationship to the next level.
Tomorrow night I am going to the drag race’s with a group of friends its always fun but I cant or wont drink like they all do, normally I head home about 11:00 or 11:30 they always close down the races and after parties. Last week the ended up out until 6:00 am. Man I way to old for that.
Sunday I will watch the 3 boys after lunch and the STBEXW and our daughter are going to a baby shower. When they leave I have not decided how to spend the evening with the B-Day boy to make his 7th the best it can be under the circumstances.
Hope everyone has a good weekend.