Truth is, I think it would hurt me if they loved her. Like it hurt when x loved her.
It would feel like another betrayal. It is not fear of abandonment, like it was with him.
And I know that is much more about me than concern for the kids (although that is there, too).
I just don't want to get hurt anymore by this woman.
She has 4 of her own kids - why can't she just leave mine alone? I think the push that x and gf have to be good with the kids is so that they can feel better as people.
X is their father. She is nothing to them, and shouldn't be.
God, I know that this sounds like I am going backwards. My head and heart are at war again.
