i caused the pain

[didthehurt]

ahh tonite i call for the boys tell them goodnight listen about their day. Then she starts talking says i never did the things she asked. She wanted to merge email accounts a few years back. I told I tried, but tech services couldn't make it happen. I gave her my password to my account. She tells me NOW well that wasnt good enough you should have just cancelled it and just gotten us another one together. I said well that was not what you said to do. Bad communication......our biggest problem... She also said she wanted me to stop playing softball. I said ok let me just finish this season. I'm the coach. I stopped she never noticed or said anything. I asked her for us to start playing softball together like we used to she said no. I asked well lets workout together -she said no, I said lets go cycling together-said no, running- no, walking- no, hunting-no, scrapbooking- no...Then finally i had enough i had been going f-ing crazy doing absoultly nothing together. This summer i said i signed us up for softball, she just laughed. Then when i said its game 1 she said she wasnt going i had made my grave i was gonna lie in it....So now with my GAL plan i want to play softball, but now i dont know if that is a good idea or not. That is compounded because when i had an affair i need girls and she didnt want to play so i made the mistake of asking the OW to come play and help out. We had already stopped the PA, and she had come to play. Anyway the W shows up and gets upset for obvious reasons....i look back now and wonder why the hell someone didnt slap the $%^& out of me...i have lost my way....