I am sorry about your situation. I am new here, but have read most of all of the active posts. I was down dead and buried the first four weeks of my situation until I read DR and started reading everyone's posts. I think that you are doing a remarkable job holding your chin up and taking care of you kids. After seven weeks of NC directed by my W I have finally seen the light and have let go. Your wife...well she does not deserve you. I would drop her like a brick and find someone who appreciates you for who you are and live a full and fruitful life. Your wife with her shallow needs will one day realize what she lost....but then who will care...