Yep, I DO want to ask - but I won't! I have the worst slanderous stuff about my xMIL in there. And I have Come To Jesus moments documented and all KINDS of crazy stuff. Oh well, he didn't have to read it and I don't even know if he did!
NM, a couple of days ago you reminded me that Mr. A is my eXH and he needs some time to miss me, and you are TOTALLY right. I'm letting it all go with Mr. A right now.
By "it all", I'm talking about the connection that has just recently happened. In the meantime, I'm going to look back over DR to get some perspective.
I started doing that already. DR says to recognize the little changes. Well, there have been a lot of little changes with Mr. A. But what about the fact that he actually TATTOOED "Kimberly Ann's" name on his [censored] chest after a few months, but waited 10 [censored] years to MARRY ME! Ok, Mrs. A has anger issues.
On a related note: I thought briefly about moving to "Divorced But Not Done" - but I'm not there, not even close. I'm just trying to survive the big D, and so is Mr. A. I think we're throwing a lot of nonsense at each other right now and a time-out will do us both good.
BUT - I'm going to try to journal tomorrow about things that have been going better with us. I'm not ready to nail this coffin quite yet...
