A new beginning to an end

[ClingingToHope]

The "I tried" thought is one thing that gives me peace at times. STBXW has the "upper hand" in that she chose to divorce me. Working through that is hard.

When it comes to kids, I have the upper hand because it wasn't my choice to throw their lives into chaos and doom them to a childhood of financial struggle for no concrete reason other than she "doesn't feel" love for me anymore. They know I didn't want this and that's going to comfort me for the rest of my life.