And... especially that you come to realize and believe he did not throw you away. I battled that belief/thought too for quite a while... and every so often it pops its ugly head back up. But, it is simply not true. Not. True.
When people abandon a M it is due to their own issues. Especially when they abandon someone who would have been willing to work on/save a M. Nobody is a perfect spouse. I wasn't, and I am sure you weren't. But that does not warrant abandonment. That is not your fault. That is HIS stuff. Please remember that.
Sol- you are worth it! You are worth loving, worth sticking it out with, worth spending time with. That is truth. Hold on to this. That is the truth I remind myself of every day.
