Good service at church. The message was about people losing themselves in trying to make their own "image" perfect. It had a lot of insight to what a lot of WA's i think go through. They look back on their M or R, and think this cant be all there is to life, so they try to paint this perfect picture, they pound it in their heads that this new life will be perfect, so they start to believe it. In reality we the LBS once we figure ths out, we can truly detach. The fact they think about the this new life, if you can realize it wont be all its cracked up to be for them, you can let go. For some they will take the W or H back, for others, once you move on so far, your done. You dont want to take them back and put yourself through that misery again. I went through it 3 years ago, and regret taking her back more and more now.I should left her in the bed she made for herself and moved on then. But I did take her back more for my kids than anything. So where to go from here..... tick tock tick tock..... I know where I am going, moving ahead without her, if I take her back in 2 days or 2 months or 2 years, that will depend on how far into my journey I have progressed.
Again you are highlighting my point, you took her back and she never had to work to regain your trust, you never made her work to regain your respect, you made it too easy for her to come back and few years later she's ready to do it all over again. The easier something is, the less value it has because it can be obtained easily. The harder something is, the more value it has because it's harder to obtain. If you could step out your front door and scoop up a handful of perfect diamonds out of your flowerbed, do you think they would be as valuable and expensive? Nope.
When did you decide to stop being a diamond?
You let her turn around your entire situation so that you are the one that has to build back trust, you are the one that has to work for her and not vice versa and guess where you're at? She doesn't want something easy and boring, she wants something valuable, challenging and exciting.
I think this separation is for the best, even if you did get back together again, she would do the same thing to you in a few years and you would be in the same mess all over again because she is too good at manipulating your mind and getting you to jump through all these hoops.
Methinks a few dates (aka social interactions with the opposite sex) in your near future will help turn things around for you and her. You start going with other women (keep it simple and non-sexual, don't hump the first skirt you go out with) and the word gets out, your street value will go up and Mrs.Dsh4320 will begin darkening your doorstep with her presence and working hard to get you back.
