You lead. Make sure the kids are taken care of, she has what she needs then you go out. Your attitude needs to be one of taking care of your family and you have been looking forward to this for yourself. Expect to be tested.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
