I can't change the past. It wasn't today that I just realized some of the mistakes I have made. The challenge is how to move forward from here. She knows that I'm there for her all the time. She invited me for dinner last night and she was doing a lot of talking. I listened, paid attention and said all the right things. It was a restaurant where most dishes can be shared. It was fun and cute to do that. It created closeness.
For a split moment I felt like there is no crisis. She was smiling, laughing and remembering some good times from the past that she brought up.
I am still struggling with my upcoming speech. I know what to say and I do have the two plans in place. I have ran through all possible scenarios especially if she starts interrupting me or refusing to hear me out. It is also difficult to find the way to be resolute and strong with words without coming across as not caring or cold.
