Yes, she did and I did too, but the timing was wrong and we decided to talk about it later. When later came we both felt that it was not important any more. We joked that we can have many vacations with the money we would spend on a wedding.
You joked that money and taking vacations was more important than her honor. I know you think you talked about it, you rationalized it away. There is a reason women shop for and buy a wedding dress, coordinate the bridesmaids, get her maid of honor to help, get a engagement ring, have numerous wedding showers, plan a big reception, order flowers, plan the music, vows and readings for the wedding and then take a honeymoon trip. Guys show up in a rented tux. It's a big deal to her. Never take for granted what is important to your woman.
She is now spending time with other men, drinking in bars with them and inviting them to parties at her vacation home to spend the night, all without you. She has health issues on her mind, she wants you gone, she's lonely and frustrated. She will find someone to listen, someone who gets her and she will give her heart to him for being there. I think she is well on here way there. Don't think for a second she is not capable of it.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
